Last resort (Lloyd)

[Lloyd Doom]

Lloyd stepped into the bathroom, walking carefully to Danni. Part of him still wanted to chastise her. Tell her what a bad thing it was that she'd done. Tell her that she could have done some serious damage. But a larger part of him - a much more dominant part, perhaps - wanted to let her know that she could talk to him, that he would try to understand even if he could not. "I'm sorry," he said quietly, putting one hand on her waist and grabbing her arm gently with the other. He stared at the wound, still unable to determine if it warranted seeing someone. He wasn't good with that stuff. He was far from healer material. "I didn't mean to suggest that you would..." he paused, unsure of how to end that sentence, "hurt yourself even worse," he finished, not sure the words worked.

"Are you sure it's fine?" he asked, not quite convinced yet, "Maybe we can have someone else look at it," but he wasn't sure she'd like that suggestion, either. A few people came to the front of his mind. He was sure that none of them would question or judge. But he still wasn't sure she'd go for it. He sighed, "Maybe they are," he told her.

[Danni Rogers]

Danni let him hold her by the waist. It was getting harder to lean into him with her bump now a days but she managed to lean her head on his shoulder some how. She watched his gaze go back to her arm. "it's really not that bad. A few days for it to heal and it will be as if nothing ever happened." she whispered. "it's better that way, making them small." she said still whispering as one tear rolled from her eyes.

"who do you want to look at it?" she asked nervously. "I don't want a healer to see it nor do I want to be put on a watch. I've been threw all that before." she said looking up at him as the honest words slipped from her lips "and it won't change next time." she hadn't meant to make her words sound so harsh but it was true. Putting her on watch wasn't going to take away the next time she did or the deeper she would cut after.

[Lloyd Doom]

He narrowed his eyes. Not that bad? It certainly looked bad. He'd call a scratch not that bad. Generally, he thought cuts - especially the deep ones - were bad. He wrapped his arm around her carefully, sighing at her words. He still wasn't entirely sure what to think, still wasn't certain what he should say. But he knew he'd be there for her regardless. "It looks bad to me," he said, speaking his words carefully. "I think it's better to just..." he said quietly, voice barely above a whisper, "not make them at all," he suggested, afraid that she'd take the thought the wrong way, but not knowing what else to say.

He bit his lip nervously, not sure she'd be too keen on either suggestion. On one hand, neither of them would ever repeat it. On the other hand, they weren't the best people to bring up at that moment. "Well, what if it was a healer... but off duty? So, no obligation to put you on a watch or anything," he began carefully, clearly obvious that he was referring to Amanda as she was the only healer he knew. "Or, someone who is equally good with treating such things such as... well... Jonathan," he added carefully, bracing himself for a reaction. "Well, what will?" he asked, not meaning to speak the words.

[Danni Rogers]

Danni thought about what he was saying and her eyes darkened slightly. "I know." she said softly and looked down shamefully. "I've tried to stop. I really have." she said making her gaze go back to him. "last time I fought it, I had a bad relapse." she confessed. "I guess....you could call this a relapse." she said gently to him hoping her would understand that it was never meant to hurt him. Nor the baby. "I just......can't stop." she whispered admiring the words with a small flinch.

Danni listened to his suggestions. She knew the healer he was referring too. It wasn't that hard to figure out. "I don't want Amanda to be blabbing about how awful I am." she said shacking her head to the thought of Amanda looking at her arm. "and even if she wouldn't I don't want to take my chances with a healer." she heard his second suggestion and nodded slowly. She knew Lloyd wanted it to be looked at and Danni knew Jonathan wouldn't lock her away for it. "Jon can look at it....if it would help ease your mind." she said agreeing to it. At his next question, Danni bit her lip nervously. "I don't know." she sighed looking back down in shame.

[Lloyd Doom]

"It's not easy," Lloyd said, the words slipping out before he could stop them. He offered no explanation to what they meant, wanting to forget he said them at all. Instead he said, "I want to... help you stop," deep, dark expression on his face, "I don't know how right now, but, we'll figure it out," he practically whispered. Her words hurt, but he still knew deep down that it wasn't intentional. He knew that in many ways, she didn't want this. "I promise I'll do my best," he vowed, pulling her into a hug.

He nodded in understanding when she rejected the idea of Amanda. He had felt certain that it wouldn't be a popular option at all. While Amanda likely wouldn't blab, he still couldn't blame Danni for thinking she would. History and all. "Then you do not have to see her," he said, waiting for her reaction to the next suggestion. "It would," he said. He sighed at her answer, replying instantly, "Hopefully, we can figure that out."

[Danni Rogers]

Danni eyes Lloyd when he had spoke. "what do you mean by that. How would you know?" she asked as her eyes wondered to his hands "you don't seem like the kind of person to do something like this." she listened to his next words not sure what to say, as he pulled her into a hug. She leant her head on his shoulder and nodded. Danni had never had anyone to want to help her stop. That was one reason why it had gotten so bad. "thank you." she whispered back to him.

Danni nodded wondering when he would want Jon to see it. She wasn't even sure if he was home now. "I guess....I wouldn't mind Jon looking at it." she said feeling as if she was repeating herself. At his next words she sighed "I'm not sure Lloyd." she said honestly. It would be nice to stop but she had been doing it for so long that a relasp was bound to happen no matter how hard she tried not to. Maybe they should lock her up.

[Lloyd Doom]

Lloyd heard her question and grew quiet for a moment. He wasn't sure how to answer that. He had meant not just one, but two things when he'd spoke the words. But mentioning either would be admitting that Jon had done it, or admitting that he had. "I just do," he said softly. He smiled solemnly at her next words. He wondered if that was true. If he really didn't seem like the kind of person who would. The smile faded quickly as he replied, "I haven't. Not in a long time, anyway," he told her, admitting that at one point he had and yet not saying it specifically. "You don't have to thank me," he replied quietly, "I'm doing it out of love,"

Lloyd wasn't sure whether Jon was there or not, either. But he supposed that having Jon take a look sooner rather than later would be best. Jonathan wouldn't be too hard to find, he guessed. One owl with the word 'emergency' and he'd hurry home in a panic. That was just the kind of person Jonathan was. "Okay. That would make me feel a bit better," he said, "We'll try,"

[Danni Rogers]

Danni leant her head into the crock of Lloyd's neck as she listened to his words. She gazed up at him as her curiously got the better of her. "what made you stop?" she asked not sure if he would answer or not. "I know but...I always thought if you saw this....you would leave me." she said admiring to the untold fear that had burned itself into the back of her mind. She couldn't lose him. And especially over something so self centered and down right stupid. She could have kicked herself for not only him seeing her like this but also for telling him that she fear him leaving her now after it.

Danni nodded in agreement. "where is Jon anyway?" she asked the that they both seemed to be wondering. She glanced down at her arm which had continued a light flow of blood. She moved away from Lloyd to bend down and grab the run away razor, placing it on top of the sink. She then grabbed a few squares of tissue paper and pressed it down on the cut. She winced slightly but tried not to show the pain that she felt from the sore open wound.

[Lloyd Doom]

Lloyd heard her question, but wasn't sure how to answer. He didn't want to make any of this about him. He sighed slightly, "I don't remember," he said quietly, "Something Marcus said or did, I guess," he shrugged it away, sure that why he stopped wouldn't be too helpful, considering. "Why would you think that?" he asked gently, looking down at her as she spoke the words, "I would never - ever - leave you over something like this," he vowed. He hugged her a little tighter then, as if to emphasize the point. "I love you too much to leave you," he said quietly.

"I'm not sure," Lloyd replied, eyes narrowed, "I think he said something about buying dog food. He should be home soon," he muttered thoughtfully. He's never bought anything like that himself. He had people to do that for him. But he supposed it couldn't take that long. He watched as Danni pulled away from him, placing the razor on top of the sink. "We can go to the living room to wait for him. I don't think his wife or the kids will be home any time soon. They won't see. And if you're afraid they will, you can borrow my hoodie. Just in case," he said as she placed a few squares of tissue paper over the cut.

[Danni Rogers]

Danni listened to him speak and couldn't help but smile as he almost seemed to vow that he wouldn't leave her over this. She felt him hug her a little bit tighter and she couldn't help but rest her chin on he's shoulder as her arms wrapped around his neck. "that means a lot to me Lloyd." she whispered before leaning in to kiss his cheek. Danni nodded when he said that he think Jon went out to buy something and should be home soon. "I'll take that hoddie please." she said softly as she made sure the cut was wrapped nicely before following him out to the livig room.

[Jonathan Doom]

He always did prefer Muggle transport. It wasn't nearly as quick, but he happened to like the travel. Alissa dropped him off just at the driveway, the two exchanging a quick kiss before he hopped out of the car, bag of dog food in his arms. She shouted something about being home by eight. Or maybe it was nine. He didn't hear before he kicked the door shut with his foot and started for the door. He figured the house would be empty. He thought that Lloyd and Danni hadn't been there when he left (though, he wasn't entirely sure if he were perfectly honest) and he hadn't seen Jacoby since god-knows-when (odd as that was, he tried not to think about it).

He awkwardly grabbed his wand, unlocking the door with a spell. He kicked it open rather than pushed it, kicking it shut behind him as he dropped the bag to the floor. His eyes instantly went to the living room, landing on Danni and Lloyd as dogs scrambled over each other to greet them. He gave each dog an awkward pat, not sure which he was petting and when as he spoke, "Hi, I didn't think anyone was home," noting the expression on Lloyd's face at that moment he added, "Everything all right?"

OOC: lol, yay Fluff words! Sorry, couldn't really avoid them. Post would have been super short if I had. xD

[Lloyd Doom]

OOC: I don't remember if I specified whether he was wearing the hoodie or not, but it's more convenient that he is. So, working with that. ~

Lloyd smiled softly, if not a bit solemnly, when Danni kissed his cheek. Despite everything, he was determined to get through it all. Together. He held onto her for another moment as she spoke, telling him that it meant a lot to her. "I'm glad that it does," he said quietly, the words genuine. He nodded when she said she'd take the hoodie, pulling away from her long enough to pull it over his head and hand it to her.

He followed her into the living room, a bit on edge as he wondered what they'd even say to Jon. He supposed it would be up to Danni. Not that he did much talking to his brother, anyway. Regardless, as soon as he heard the familiar sounds of paws darting through the hall, he knew that Jon was home. He stepped aside, avoiding being knocked over by the sheepdog as he glanced in Jon's direction. Not sure how to answer the question, he turned to Danni.

[Danni Rogers]

Danni saw the small smile that was on Lloyd's face and knew his words where genuine as he spoke them. "you really are the best boyfriend I could have asked for" she said softly. For Danni this was the first time she had a boyfriend who cared more about her well being than anything else. It was a strange feeling but in a good way. As he pulled his hoddie off and handed it to her she quickly pulled it over her head and around her bump before following him to the living room.

Danni watched the dogs rush to the door as Jon entered, dropping a bag of dog food on the floor. She took a note that Vlad and Haven both seemed to be out of the pile of paws that clobbered Jon. "I've been home for a bit. Lloyd just got home." she said making small chat. At Jon's question she noticed how everyone seemed to stare at her, which made her nervous. She didn't know how to answer him. She took a deep breath and looked at Jon. "we need your opinion." she said slowly as her fingers seemed to clench onto the sleeve of the hoddie tighter.

[Jonathan Doom]

Jonathan waved the dogs away with both hands. While it took them a minute (they certainly weren't as trained as Lloyd's two), eventually they did disperse, disappearing in various locations around the house. He looked toward Danni again as she spoke. He nodded in response, not sure what to say to that. Unsure of how long a bit even was. He supposed he'd never quite get used to the two of them being there. Not that he minded either way. Better there with him than with Marcus, he supposed.

He kept his eyes on Danni, watching in anticipation as she let out a deep breath. He was certain that Lloyd had looked in her direction, too. He knew instantly that something was up and suddenly felt a bit nervous himself. His first thought was the baby, which caused him to stiffen for a brief moment. Then, she asked for his opinion and he furrowed his brow in confusion, "My opinion?" he asked, "On what?"

[Danni Rogers]

Danni saw Jon look confused as he asked her what she needed his option for. She supposed that it would be easier to hurry up with it and get this over with. Lloyd had spoken so she took a step towards Jon. "Lloyd wants you to look at this." she said carefully as she rolled down the hoddie sleeve revealing the bloodshed tissue that was wrapped around her arm. She slowly removed the tissue to show him the deep cut and shallow others.